To not care

To not care is one of the deadliest traits to possess. It is at this moment we become invincible, welding a dangerous dagger that's ready to slice anyone - including ourself. The ones that don't care tango with extreme highs and lows; we knock at death's door without knowing it because we've forgotten what it's …

Once she emerges

A/N Please be advised the following POV can be triggering. Sometimes everything seems to be getting better but then, out of nowhere, the sickening heavy feeling takes over my body. It feels like I'm trying to steer my life from the backseat, and catch glimpses of street names from the passenger side window. I feel …

there’s this sadness gnawing away

there's this sadness gnawing away at my bones; it lurks inside my soul and feeds off my thoughts. i tried to kill it but my conscience kept resuscitating it; i think my heart fell in love with the way it remains loyal to me in a way no one else can be. i'm tired of …

unresponsive

i stay offline aeroplane mode pattering keyboard fingers dead, vibrating buzzes of messages silent the flickering light of notifications resting the battery sleeping, voice calls not going through network disconnected´ the person you are trying to call is unavailable welcome to three voicemail, one tick last seen 27/10/15 unresponsive uncaring not fearful of shoving people …

he traded us

he loves drinking and the drink seems to love him; no care it seems neither has for the world. he traded his wife's love for the one of a bottle, gambled away his kids' love to the off licence corner shops; more loyal to the alcohol than to his work schedule alas it seems no …

we don’t talk anymore

you hit me up like hey what's good girl? and i tell you nothing's changed and that my spirit isn't broken by the world; i'm a changed bitch i say whilst i watch you believe all the pretty lies i throw to you. it's like all of before means nothing to me or perhaps it …

and suddenly

warning: this post can be triggering so please don’t read if you feel it may affect you. please put your well being first x the post today covers the theme of PTSD. and suddenly all at once i found myself struggling to function as i felt everything with such a raw intensity all at once …

something i can’t forget

i want to run away from Something that i can't forget; i want to know what it's like to not be a prisoner of your memories. i want to live in the now and not have the past waltzing into the present; i don't know what it's like to not want to erase your timeline …

i don’t want to see another new face

i don't want to be in someone else's embrace and wonder if this is the last time that they'll hold me; i don't want to deep talk about life with them whilst watching the world blur on by and think to myself perhaps this is the last time i'd experience such an evoking conversation. i …

before i went

warning: this post can be triggering so please don't read if you're going through a tough time; the post covers the theme of suicide. if you think this post is suitable for you to read, please play/listen to 'before you go' by lewis capaldi before reading. it really sets the mood; let the lyrics and …