there’s this sadness gnawing away

there’s this sadness
gnawing away at my
bones;
it lurks inside my
soul
and feeds off
my thoughts.

i tried to kill it
but my conscience
kept resuscitating
it;
i think my
heart fell
in love with the
way it
remains loyal to
me in a way
no one else can
be.

i’m tired
of letting
sadness be a
lodger within
my body;
i’d like to hand it
it’s fourteen day
notice and ask it
to kindly evacuate
the premises
but i’m afraid
it doesn’t seem to
work like
that.

the sadness
has seeped into
all the nooks
and cracks
and has made
itself at home;
it’s rotted away
happiness
and positivity
is on the decay –
where is it to be
found?

i don’t
know
where to look.

i’m not searching
in people’s eyes
or architectures
looming out of
the atlas
nor the hobbies
i have
submitted myself to.

instead
i trace the
lines down my
palm
and try read
where my
happiness
is seeking refuge.

because i
want you
back.

i’m desperate
for you.

i need
you
and i’m not a
fool to go
running into
the arms of
happiness
that does not start
from within
me.

there’s this sadness
gnawing away at my
bones;
it lurks inside my
soul
and i’m
doing my
best to poison
it with
good vibes
and overdose
it with healthy
thoughts
so that
one day
me and happiness
can emerge the
victors.

and until
then, i’ll wait
it out
like i usually
do.

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