I’m scared

i think committmentscares me when i thinkabout it for too long;and i'm not talking aboutloyalty or always choosingthem over the temptation.i'm not talking exclusively about love or lust, but rather the committment tolast whether as friends, loversor some kind of meaningful yetdistant bond. how can someone thatstruggles to stay committedto themselves not be scaredof latching …

i hope you get used to the silence

a couple of drunken missed calls and a voicemaillater you've got mein your clutches again;you took away timethat i'll never get back,and now you're blaming me for being alone,void of companionshipand affection. i wish that someone had told me that it's not a sin to discard peoplewho wreak havocand play with your life as if …

that’s hilarious

you took away three yearsand threw it away like it was nothing;guess you finally turned into someoneyou promised you'd never be - that's hilarious. except i'm laughingto keep the tears at bayand to forget the sting of betrayal;look at the way our worldhas eclipsed,you now block out the light and leave me in darkness. and …

A Loan about to Expire

I thought we'd lastForeverBut I see now that we won't. I gave you my friendshipTo lastBut now it feels like a loanThat's about to expire.It hurts a little more than It should Because this is something thatOnly I know.You're so wrapped up In your own thoughts andPerceptions that I doubt you'veRealised that time is running …

The Day you killed us Both

Growing up with youBut without you Made me learn the wayPeople con and commit Emotional fraud. You were never there,You never knew me,Or cared enough to Protect me. Instead you betrayed meIn the worst way possible;You taught me that the Wicked hide amongst usIn this world,That no one can beTrusted. I can't sayThat I miss …

To not care

To not care is one of the deadliest traits to possess. It is at this moment we become invincible, welding a dangerous dagger that's ready to slice anyone - including ourself. The ones that don't care tango with extreme highs and lows; we knock at death's door without knowing it because we've forgotten what it's …

Or so the story goes

New Year, New Me,Or so the story goes;I'm tired of waiting for the Perfect moment to Erase the slate and startAfresh. I'm meandering aimlessly,Wasting moments of livingBy just existing in some bleakMindset where I'm craving toReinvent myself.I scam myself of progress,I steal time away from self-growthAnd sabotage the presentWith alluring thoughts of Future me holding …

She’s got a mean smile

She's got a mean smile,Hidden behind the angelic Façade people used toEncounter on first introductionsBut the mask has dropped nowAnd one is greeted withCalculated coldness Combined with distrust stemmingFrom cynicism that you'd beDifferent from everyone elseWho pledged to never bailOn her like that - Ouch. She's fearless now,Made to feel invincible As she knows she's …

Once she emerges

A/N Please be advised the following POV can be triggering. Sometimes everything seems to be getting better but then, out of nowhere, the sickening heavy feeling takes over my body. It feels like I'm trying to steer my life from the backseat, and catch glimpses of street names from the passenger side window. I feel …

How bad is it?

How bad is it?The way you have Dug your grave prematurelyAnd buried yourself withPosies of lilies and red rosesTo remind yourself of The purity and love youOnce held in your mind.How deep are your wounds?How often do you let them bleed?Do you rub salt in themTo relive the agonyOr do you deny yourselfOf healing because …