I think the last time I sat down and allowed my readers to get to know me was when I was seventeen…and now I’m twenty three.
It’s crazy to think that I first started blogging on WordPress almost eight years ago! And here we are, still loyal to this blog.
I definitely took extremely long hiatuses from blogging which makes me sad; it resulted in me loosing many blogging friends, but also feeling alienated from the blogosphere.
Time passes by, and everything evolves leaving those returning to the blogging world feeling like they’re clawing away at the past.
And that’s why I thought it’d be a nice touch to reintroduce the more “polished” version of Kiya whose gone through numerous growth spurts – more emotional than physical – in the hopes I’d stumble across long lost blogging friends, but also allowing me to meet the more newer faces!
Some of my closest friends are people that I’ve met via blogging or writing sites (shout out to Wattpad). This has led me to have beautiful pen palling bonds with some of my favourite human beings ever – Croatia, France, India, Philippines, Australia, Spain to list a few.
I’m the shy, quiet, socially awkward type of person until you unlock my trust; after that, you’re doomed to endless blabber from myself and swearing yourself to keeping my deepest, darkest secrets safe.
I love fading into the shadows and maintaining my anonymity for most part, but I feel like the time has come to do a slight “face” reveal that suits my comfort level. I often feel it’s nice to have a face to a name or voice; it just makes me feel more connected and gives the post a personal touch. Like I’m actually communicating with a friend as opposed to a figment of my imagination.
Okay sue me – I love vibrant colours, and cosy fits and probably have zero fashion sense! I don’t claim to be a photogenetic person unfortunately.
I recently came across this song, In the Stars by Benson Boone, and these lyrics really hit hard. I feel like most of my life I’ve been scared or anxious to close doors in my life, and look to start new chapters because I hate giving up on ideas, dreams and people.
“Oh, I’m still holding on to everything that’s dead and gone
I don’t wanna say goodbye ’cause this one means forever…”
Life eventually taught me that holding onto things and attempting to water dead roots only hurts you. And that’s lesson one Kiya learnt out of many in the recent years!
I am somewhat musical although I was more in touch with it, in my teens. I’m slowly trying to get back into playing the piano regularly and picking up a new instrument. I used to go to weekend music school and play in orchestras/bands/choir so if we have any fellow musicians, do swing by with any tips for getting back into music. If you wish to immerse yourself into some rusty music, you can listen to my covers over at my insta kiyax_x.
I academically pursued the piano, violin and saxophone for a while, and did music theory to understand what goes into composing music. Along the way I self taught to play the family of recorders (the sound of the tenor recorder is so soothing in my opinion and the appearance of the garklein recorder is so cute!) and am currently struggling to pick up the guitar. My mind is used to reading music notation that suddenly trying to get my head around tab music is proving quite a struggle for me! I also pursued Karnatic music for a while – singing and the veena! Karnatic music originates from South India and has it’s own notation and theory – very different from Western music.
I was born in the UK, but I’m Tamil. I haven’t ever visited my motherland due to civil war, politics, safety, timing and tickets costing an arm and a leg! But I hope in the next year or two, to hop on a plane and learn more about my culture and roots. It’s one thing hearing about it, and it’s another seeing it for yourself. My real name’s meaning is *drumroll please* Literature. How fitting right!
I’ve also invented my own version of the English language due to my special way of pronouncing words. To be honest, I’m not entirely sure why I have this trait or how I managed to misread/missay words and embed it into my head. I want to say it affects only a few words but I feel like that’s becoming more and more of a lie. Every few months, someone will inform me, by the way Kiya…it’s not said like that! Latest word I say incorrectly is chameleon – but really you can’t blame me for that one! One of my more “quirky” words is yesterday pronounced by yours truly as yes-ter-today…don’t ask questions, let’s move on haha!
I’m bilingual and want to brush up on my German (it’s only up to GCSE standards) and learn some basic Korean. It would be nice to understand more of the shows without heavy reliance on subtitles. Also want to improve my Tamil and be able to write well in it. I can currently read and understand Tamil for the most part but my writing is very shaky – I blame part of it on the alphabet containing 247 letters!
Fun fact – I need subtitles for all shows/movies otherwise I feel super lost and constantly pausing and rewinding. My mind has a slight lag between connecting the audio to what I’m actually seeing, so having subtitles really helps me process the plot.
Don’t even get me started on the unhealthy amount of books I have. Some article online mentioned you only need a thousand books, before it’s considered a library. At some point, when I’m incredibly bored I plan on figuring out if I have a library or not. Anyways, to conquer this book buying habit of mine (and to prevent money trickling through my fingertips) I recently began pursing ARCs.
Admittedly, my younger self would be ashamed of the number of books I’ve consumed in the past few years – it’s at an all time low but I plan on improving my stats from here onwards! If there’s any book lovers, let me know good ARCs to request or even point me in the direction of your all time fav book or review you’ve written. I need your help to spark the passion for reading 24/7 again!
I had an intense obsession with mythology – Egyptian, Greek, Norse, Roman, Aztec. Hence I can list off a tad too many God/Godess names and spurt random facts oops. At this mature age, I’m very excited for the TV adaptation of the Percy Jackson series – I will actually cry if it’s a disappointing remake of the books.
In my spare time, I volunteer with the National Trust, and my local heritage railway line. I tend to lend my support towards crafting events, and working with children but if I see a cool opportunity open up where I can learn a “badass” skill…then I’m the first knocking at the door to sign me up! (I may or may not be on the waiting list to learn how to drive a steam train – and yes, it involves the nitty gritty from understanding the hows, whys and basics of the steam engine/train before I get to choo choo away).
I love visiting historical or natural locations – something about exploring buildings or peaceful walks makes me feel giddy. I’d recommend National Trust or English Heritage memberships for sure!
Almost a year ago, I fell victim to the kdrama fandom. I now pretty much only watch korean shows on Netflix (Viki is being eyed up) and I’ve just started watching my 40th show. I’m currently two timing between Tomorrow and Cafe Minamdang. Sometimes you might see me pop in and out of Webtoon as I try to quench my thirst for anime/manga/comics. I still take photographs – my camera roll features 0.0001% of me and more so of nature, architecture and animals. It’s on my bucketlist to do a course on editing and manipulating images. (for more magical mystical vibes – not to catfish don’t worry!)
Ah my music taste! I’m more drawn to lowkey artists and songs with feeling and a broken soul vibe to it. I like to feel seen or heard when I listen to music for the most part. I love rappers like NF or Phora; I love artists like Lauv and Jeremy Zucker. If it’s BGM I’m after, Ludovivo Einaudi or Anirudh Ravichander is my dude.
I guess you’re somewhat curious as to what my actual profession is…I’m an exam away from qualifying as an accountant with ACCA. Is that my life’s dream – not really. Is it a career that is keeping me fulfilled and content – yes. Do I know what my next steps are – help! I very much would love to find myself in the field of foresenic accounting but it’s such a small, narrow field, I’m not counting my lucky stars to see that dream materialise into reality. But hey, we’ll try a little before giving up!
For those that are nosy, I did English Literature, Maths, Chemistry and Further Maths (AS) at sixth form (such a miserable period of education haha) and then somehow bagged myself a trainee accounts job at eighteen. Not going to uni, hands down the best decision of my life but it took a while for the people around me to warm and accept that decision.
This route I took shaped me as a person, developed my character and made me more confident and independent. It’s taken me quite a while to be able to step back and see the self growth and whisper to myself, damn I’m proud of that girl. That girl being me – eek!
Mental health is something close to my heart. I’ve had to support many friends who experienced different obstacles in life, and it hurt seeing the stigma that still exists around mental health. I also struggle with sadness, overthinking and feeling anxious and agitated easily so sometimes this taps into some of my poetry and creative writing.
You know when I write more personal posts, I feel like either I’m being too big headed, self-obssessed or giving details that will allow a serial killer to hunt me down? I’m usually a very reserved, private person so right now I feel super naked to put it into simplier terms.
Is this a good look for me haha – should I do more chatty, sit down with Kiya type posts?
Let me know something about yourselves in the comments – introduce yourself to me. Promote your favourite post of yours to me – I will check it out! *wink wink* Is that enough of a bribe to make you comment?!
Can you relate to any of my expereinces or thoughts I’ve exploded out of my mind in this post? Do you have any questions for me or suggestions for future posts?
I hope you enjoyed today’s post, and feel like you know the “mystery” girl behind this blog a little more. I’d appreciate it if you could please drop a follow via wordpress/email/my socials and we can become each others cheerleaders.