Warning : negative emotions ahead in the form of a poem.
I’ve been meaning to tell you how I’m feeling lately,
Yet the words refuse to spill,
I must have aged a thousand years,
Living it alone,
What do I mean
When nothing is wrong
And life is fine
I’m so swamped in the perfect lie I’ve build for you to see
So when I want to turn back
And give it all up
You don’t get why
Take away the smiles,
And laughs,
Too hard to breathe,
I’m so tired
It’s the same old charade
Don’t hold your breath
I’m falling freestyle
My minds had enough
Legs trembling
Body weak
Falling,
Falling,
She lies on the floor
Still,
Yet free from memories.
What happens when the main source of pain is yourself,
The cause of anger is rooted deep in the past,
Your shameful mistakes tinged with regret now that times have changed,
Yet the memories don’t escape when sleep lulls you to fears,
And the tears oh they gush when everything goes wrong,
Your firewall hacked into,
Your mental barrier crashes,
You sit there, lie there,
Asking why
Why oh why do the tears not stop
Why oh why do you not give yourself up,
Up to the ones who will help you,
Barricade away,
Take in a shaky breath,
Wipe those salty tears away,
Those red dull eyes only reflect secrecy,
No pain no gain they say
But what a lie,
Breathe in breathe out
The intrusion is over
And back I go to pretending everything is okay
. . . which it is.
It’s okay to be not okay. It’s okay to show someone you’re falling apart, and it’s also okay to find support from people other than family and friends. It’s okay to cry yourself to sleep, to feel alone despite being surrounded by people, to feel lost even though everything is going well and to feel waves of sadness.
But it’s not okay to be not okay alone, sufferring by yourself day after day because you deserve to smile a smile of joy, not one of pain. You are special and you are equally as important as anyone else in this world so please reach out today even if it’s to say hi, i need a hug today or whether it be calling or texting a helpline.
Some battles are meant to be defeated together. So please, I know this is scary, open up to someone you trust.
*Virtual hug*
I get you, it’s ok to feel sad sometimes. XD And I love the poem! Great post!!
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Thank you x
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No problem!! XD XD
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I understand. I understand the emotions throughout this poem; I’ve felt them at one time or another. You can always, always talk; I’m here whenever you need me. Perhaps we’ll fall, but we can fall with others beside us.
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Thank you Elm 💕 I like the idea of falling together and piecing ourselves back together with the help of togetherness. Remember, you’re capable of everything too x
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Thank you for writing this beautiful poem. We all need the reminder sometimes and this is a moving and powerful one. Really, thank you.
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Thank you 💕
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*virtual hug*
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Thank you *hugs back*
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I cried. I blew into a snot rag. I cried some more. Now I obsess and reread it.
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Your comments are always so emotive, thank you
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Ha ha! 😀 You’re very welcome! 😉
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Such an amazing and truthful poem… So much depth and yeah it is okay to cry sometimes. Sometimes you just need to let down that barrier and just be yourself 😊😊
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thank you! and yes, you’ve said it so nicely, sometimes it’s okay to let your guard down and let it all out
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