Dear Crush,
You’re so confusing. Honestly. There are times when I feel at ease with you and speak my mind, and be myself and we have a laugh. Then there are moment when butterflies are all that squirm in my stomach.
When I think I’m over you, I’m not. When I’m not supposed to be over you, I am. You’re always haunting my mind when someone mentions something that connects to you. I can literally sing Katy Perry’s song to you: You’re hot and you’re cold, you’re yes and you’re no, you’re in and you’re out . . . because you know what, that’s all you are. A yes or a no of many thoughts.
So here I wait for you to whisk me away. And here I stand, wondering if I had made a mistake when I moved on. Did you ever like me? Was I ever in your mind after I left? Should I just have told you? Let me tell you fact number one I learnt about crushes: you never stop thinking about them ever. Even when you’ve moved on because there always is a million what if’s in your head.
Love
A very familiar feeling. It still creeps in years later.
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I can definitely relate to this, on a spectrum of levels.
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OMG this is so true!!!! This is literally the story of my life, like I can never stop thinking about my crush!!! And to make matters worse, he’s MY TEACHER!!! It’s just so awkward but he’s so nice, gah!! Great post!!!!
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Hahaha bless. Well try not to daydream too much about your teacher when he’s teaching you :p and thank you!
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Yeah, haha!! It’s hard though! And no problem!!!!! XD
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Scarily relatable. What ifs pound me every day even though I know that’s it’s for the best that nothing happened… I’m quite happy that I only have crushed on three people. I don’t think I’d be able to handle having multiple what ifs for more than three guys on the brain… One is difficult enough as it is! ^-^
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I love your dear ‘…’ It’s a good insight on what we’d like to say to these emotions/people 🙂
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Thank you. That means a lot to me and I’m glad you love it!
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